At the turn of the New Year, I made the decision to change my way of living, challenge the way I was conditioned and redirect how I behave as an adult. “30 days,” I thought. “30 days will be the perfect amount of time to set me straight.”
In the beginning, I counted the days and celebrated every milestone. I studied my calendar and tried to will the days to go by quickly and with more ease. Yet when the 30 days were up, I wasn’t ready for the journey to be over; so I pressed on with no end in sight. I decided it would take me as long as I needed, and I would keep moving forward until I liked who I uncovered underneath it all.
Today marks ten months of traveling down this road. A road I never thought I would be on this long.
Until recently, I fought an internal battle with who I am and who I want to become; and it wasn’t until I took the time to unravel my feelings that I could resolve the issues and become comfortable with the truth.
Hoping and dreaming I would wake up one day and be inspired and motivated creatively, but not doing anything to create change is not a habit of a highly successful individual. Wanting my spiritual practices and my physical fitness to improve and prosper but not maintaining a daily regiment is not the way to awaken one’s soul.
Today I stand before this long road which unwinds before me. I know not where it will take me, but that one day I will arrive at my destination ready, willing and prepared.
I ask, “Who will I become at the end of this journey? Who will I discover when no one else is around?”
I know now the road to success is paved with hard work. Very hard work, and that’s all I know to be true.